263. List of Random Fears

I was bored in Lit one day and decided to make a list of some random things that I'm afraid of. I'm sure that a lot more will be added later. Here goes...

1. My eyes turning brown
2. My skin turning brown
3. Flesh-eating disease
4. Having an aneurysm
5. Having a heart attack
6. Dieing in my sleep and not getting a chance to realize that I've died
7. Thinking I'm only falling asleep and allowing myself to do so only to realize that I was slowly dieing instead.
8. My heart randomly stopping
9. Getting hit by a car
10. An organ getting hooked on one of my ribs
11. Tearing an organ while stretching
12. Going blind
13. Losing my teeth
14. Losing my hair
15. Having anything amputated
16. Being buried alive
17. Accidentally gashing my radial or ulner arteries or veins
18. Dying in general
19. Ceasing to exist
20. Spontaneous combustion
21. Paralysis
22. Accidentally driving off a cliff
23. Getting into a traffic collision
24. Accidental self-immolation
25. Getting blown up and having bits and pieces of my body scatter everywhere
26. Having my jaw ripped out
27. Having my tongue ripped out
28. Having a piercing pulled out
29. Pulling on a piercing hard enough to do some sort of nerve damage
30. Having my flesh burnt off by the sun
31. Finding out what my flesh smells like when it's cooked
32. Having bugs crawling on me
33. Having bugs lay eggs in my skin
34. Having bugs nesting in any of my orifices
35. Cockroaches
36. Accidentally eating a bug
37. Leprosy
38. Dieing of something ignominious
39. Having my dead body found in an ignominious situation/position
40. Hearing someone's heart stop
41. Being pronounced dead while I'm still alive
42. Going for surgery and being able to feel everything
43. Anesthesia
44. Hallucinations
45. Being incapable of knowing whether I'm hallucinating or not
46. Accidentally jumping off a building
47. Accidentally jumping off a bridge
48. Accidentally overdosing
49. Accidentally hanging myself
50. Accidentally killing myself in general
51. Being eaten alive
52. Being torn apart
53. Nuclear warfare
54. Radiation poisoning
55. Tripping and falling into the street and getting hit by a car
56. Tripping and falling into the street and getting hit by a car in front of someone I like
57. Accidentally putting myself into a situation where I get killed in front of someone I like
58. Getting stuck in a tunnel/pipe
59. Being incapable of getting rid of hiccups
60. Never leaving my house
61. No one realizing that I've died

262.

Well, I seem to keep forgetting about this whole blogging business. My bad. Anyway, the past little while has been pretty groovy, but I'm too lazy to type all of it out. Let me just make a list: Grantham Hall Show, Walking with Jesse, Drinking With Justin, Keshia & Kenzie's 19th, Men in White Cars With Dogs, Car Cupcakes for Jesse, Night Escapades With Liz, Swimming With Holly and Liz, Bad News from Jesse Followed by Good News, Sean O'Rourke's Party, Sleeping In Front of Thrifty's, Morning With Jesse, Thrash of the Titans II, Night With Jesse and Trailer Park Steve, Today. Plus others that I'm less likely to remember.

Either way, so far has been glorious. Maybe I'll actually start that Math course and get a job...

261.

This is the dress I was talking about. Well, kind of. It's really just me being a narcissist. :]

260.

Oh my goodness. Guess what today is? It's Keshia and Kenzie's 19th! I'm so excited! Maggi, Trent and I have been looking forward to it since the beginning of June. We are all going to get our drink on hardcore. The only downside is that I forgot it was supposed to be jungle themed and I am now unprepared. I'm just going to wear a tan dress with jungle-esque flowers on it. I went outside a few minutes ago to try to make a daisy chain headband, but there were weird little bugs in the daisies. I was very sad when I saw that as I was intensely excited about having a daisy headband.

259.

It should be noted that I used to have a trademark fruit and it was a green apple. It should also be noted, for future reference, that I have developed a mild obsession with Massive Attack. Particularly their album Mezzanine. Oh, and I still have a distate for poor grammar.

258.

Well, that last show at the Grantham was pretty groovy. Originally I had been trying to convince Chantelle to come with me so that I'd have someone to hang out with, but she kept saying no so I decided to ask Phoenix. She said yes and decided to drive us there. So, I went over to her house and chilled with her and Dale for a while and then she invited Greg and Kyle over. All was well until she decided to stay and hang out with them. Lucky for me, Chantelle messaged me and said that she was going to drive Jesse Abram to the show and asked if I still wanted to go. Obviously I did.

We get to the show, smoke some pot, drink some rum and beer, do our thing and then by the time Jesse and I wanted to leave, Chantelle no longer did and couldn't drive at the time. Jesse and I decided to walk. After over two hours we decided that it was probably time to try hitchhiking since he only had a half hour left to get to work and we were still quite far away. Eventually we managed to get a ride (it was quite a challenge; we're blaming it on our matching head-to-toe black, boots, and piercings) and I arrived home around seven in the morning. It was quite the night, indeed.

257.

For fuck's sake! My mom has decided to re-paint our living room. Let me just say this. IT LOOKS TERRIBLE! It's this horrible gray-green colour. I told her not to do it. Multiple times for that matter. Does she listen to me? Clearly she doesn't. She just kept telling me that it would turn out fine. Does it? NOPE. Even she agrees that it looks terrible. Her response: "We'll get used to it..." Mhmmm. Right. I am VERY displeased at the moment since I spend most of my time in the living room. Goddamn. >.<

256.

Gabe and I are writing poems together. They're lovely and brutal. We make a great team. :]

255.

Fuck yes! There's a show tomorrow. Apparently it's going to begin with some nifty punk stuff (which is long overdue!) and it will end in the metal spectrum with Archon Legion to seal off the night. STOKED! The last time I saw Archon Legion it was ruined by an incident that I'd rather not see repeated. >:|

Speaking of shows, July 18th is Thrash of the Titans II. I am so fucking stoked. Goddamn. A night to fucking remember. I can't wait. Fuck yeah.

254.

I really miss History class and the insane shenanigans that Walter, Morgan and I would get into. I also miss seeing John Le reppin' LRG. I need to buy an LRG shirt. I think I'm going to throw a major rager sometime next month when my mom goes out of town or whatever so that I can have some sort of a reunion or whatever. This would also involve friends from out of town coming into town. It shall be glorious.

253.

Goddamn. I need to start posting more often. Anyway, I haven't been up to much of anything lately. In fact, I'm incredibly bored. Hmm, well, I'm graduated now. Hooray. Now I need to get a job, move out, and start acting responsibly. Ugh, lame.

So, my dad came down for my grad. He brought his girlfriend with him. Her name is Val. They have been going out for over a year now. I just found out about her upon his arrival. Even then he didn't tell me. I found out from her. Girlfriend aside, my dad used to be an alcoholic, but has been sober for six years. Guess when he decided to start drinking again? Yes, that's right, on the weekend of my grad. In fact, he showed up at my grad ceremony hammered. While we're on the topic of facts, he was hammered the entire time he was down despite the fact that he hadn't even seen me in a few years. Isn't that fun?

I need something to do. I think I'm going to get a job where I get to wear a fancy suit and paid a lot of money and then develop a cocain habit. Not a sleazy suck-dick-for-crack addiction, but a really classy do-lines-in-the-bathroom-of-Dorsia addiction. It wouldn't even be a real addiction. I think it'd be swell.